I'll be there sunday to see Man Man, Defiance, Oh., This Bike is Pipe Bomb and other but mostly those, see you there!
Thu, Mar. 4th, 2010, 01:36 am
i just want a way out.
Wed, Feb. 17th, 2010, 07:46 pm
i quit my job with a letter and barely a days notice, 2 days later they call me practically begging me to come into a better position, one i was going to ask for anyway so i took it, and i dont have to go in til 5, so thats cool.
oh and i just found out valencia and ucf have the same thing going on with their architecture degree as hcc and usf so i may do that instead, if i get to drive again, cuz i would either stay living here, or move to orlando and stay working here and not have to worry aout finding a job.
the last 10 years were wild and fun, so many memories and even more forgots, but those were probably the best nights. In august i'm taking a big step in achieving my goal of having my BA by 30, but that has changed to having my masters of architecture in BA and studying one summer in japan by 29 3 months before i turn 30. I'll be moving to tampa sind HCC has an actual architecture program, my comples owns property there or i have another less expenisive possible oyion on house. I'll be done with the AA by summer of 2011, starting USF in the Fall of 11 and i will finish my masters there before i'm 30, eeeek, then i get to intern in las vegas(i could really do it anywhere but i want las vegas) due to my dad having connections in the architecture indusrty being an electrician, thats for 2 years, then finallly my ulitmate goal of living in manhatten by the time i'm 33 or 34, and become an architectural director by 35. i'll start of small in manhattan, but by the timei'm 35 ad have goten to the big position, i will be able to afford a very nice apartment or loft. I know its taken me a while, but it feels so good to have a plan, trust me i have an excel spreadsheet or word document outlining each event thats going to happen in the next 9 years. I feel so good. I will be focusing on people that I want to be in my life forever, you know like real friends who live in different cities and states but make trips to visit once or twice a year, and call each pther on the phone 2 or 3 times a month, just to ctach up. then there will still be the in besties i meet along the way in each place but the real friends are the ones athat are gonna matter most, i'm retiring in florida at the earlieast age possible and if they still exist probably living in one of the condos on 3rd street so i'll go back to my roots, and by that time the 3rd street house may be mine, so we'll see whats going on when i'm 62 and have 24000 a month and not including my 401k and other benefits...gah my lifes gonna be hard for a while but the ends definately justify the means and i actually have the gull to do it all now. I love you and I love me,
Thu, Oct. 1st, 2009, 09:59 am
there are soe days when i love living here and others when i just cant stand....after tomorrow that willl be no worries.
Why are there so many choice's....
stay in shadow lakes, or move in with family
stay with whole foods, or go out to an unstable job market; where i do have an interested party and a not so great second option
continue down a constructive, yet functioning path or cut ties with most things I hold dear
stay at home tonight or go to a bar with a bunch of people i think are interesting but i dislike the bar
call karina or just not go back
i know all i ever do is have a desicion to make...i cannot help it though ove the last 10 years everything got do confusing.
i bought a little tape recorder so I can finally begin writing my book and I have some good ideas for painting i just need to regain my artistic ability,
-people that tell you they know how it is and its not going to work
-people that lie or fabricate truths throughout different time periods and groups of people.
-people that correct grammar.
maybe its just people.
Mon, May. 25th, 2009, 10:10 pm
this has to end, but yeah right. i def chose the wrong fork in the road sometime about 10 years ago.
Sat, Feb. 21st, 2009, 12:50 pm
Addictions. We all have them, do any out weigh the other in there severity? Can we judge each other when we cannot even stop ourselves from induldging in a world of fantasy and unacheivable happiness. What is it that we're looking for? The calm so we can sleep at night, for the pain to just go away, to get everyone to believe that your words are the truth, the sweet release when a taboo sexual encounter makes you feel like you've conquered the world, the ability to have power over people who we are supposed to love and care about, the obsession over someone who will never feel the same about you, the one who believes they don't want true love exchanging it with sips of gin. Could we even stand ourselves if we hadn't dug ourselves into such a deep pit that now none of us can get out. It's an interesting world up there and I for one want to enjoy it.
Wed, Feb. 11th, 2009, 04:48 pm
I've been dreaming about work, last night was the most intense to speak of though. I got fired and I thought i'd be upset. I wasn't I wonder if that's real andif something somewhere is deliverying a message to me. About the only way that could happen and be ok at this point is if somehow i recieved over 100,000 dollars. blah. i want to start my business...or just go home.