Another year has passed me by..I can't become the one that doesn't do the things I shouldn't. I don't know who decided that I couldn't do them but they or he or everyone perfected the idea of tragedy and I'm sticking to my guns on this one. I can't tell a lie and I can't help it that I cried when you and her were in each others beds but It wasn't jealousy because I don't believe in that but last year things were so different and I can't even tell you how much I'm longing for it to be that away again. I didn't mean to lose you and really hope it's not permanent. It's crazy how I can write on here things I'd never say anywhere else.