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Wed, Dec. 1st, 2010, 08:58 pm

 I'll never change. I'm going to be sad forever. Unless I do something about it they say. I'm sad for a lot of reasons. My friends are junkies, I don't know what love is, I'm broke....blah blah blah. I just want to make a difference to myself, someone else, the world, anything. I want to matter. That's all I've ever wanted. Withe limelight fading is there anything left to do but run? I always think so then i meet what at the time seems like an amazing person or group of people and i again i get sucked back in. Who am I doing this for and more so why? Alone, broke, and jobless...my three biggest fears other than heights and man i'd much rather be on a literal roller coaster not this figurative one that is not stopping until it comes to a crashing halt.