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Sun, Apr. 28th, 2013, 09:35 pm
One Year

Another year has passed me by..I can't become the one that doesn't do the things I shouldn't. I don't know who decided that I couldn't do them but they or he or everyone perfected the idea of tragedy and I'm sticking to my guns on this one. I can't tell a lie and I can't help it that I cried when you and her were in each others beds but It wasn't jealousy because I don't believe in that but last year things were so different and I can't even tell you how much I'm longing for it to be that away again. I didn't mean to lose you and really hope it's not permanent. It's crazy how I can write on here things I'd never say anywhere else. 

Wed, Aug. 8th, 2012, 10:26 am

Reruns of life from almost 10 years ago. The patterns repeat, I know I'll be fine on my own. No I won't.  I have this love that's never ending but what if the love is returned but it's not the same kind of love. the future could hold many things but really I just want to be holding the one who is running through my brain. Making me crazy. It's feeling I know and a feeling I love but I also hate it. I can't help but think that I'm the most important and if anyone else happened it would just be to maintain a real love and not just the temporary kind. I can't keep doing this but how can I not. I love love and all that it brings. If that's true then why am I so sad right now?

Wed, Jun. 20th, 2012, 09:06 pm

Listen, It's getting to be a thing but it's not the thing you thought it may have been when you sat down and questioned the ideas of all that you ever believed and all that you sought for oh so long and it will all be ok someday. 

Wed, Jun. 6th, 2012, 12:04 pm

Oh this ride has finally ended. No it hasn't it's just begun. I love it. I love newness. I can't get enough. I want to go everywhere. And I feel like I will. Even if the undain is the road I have to take to achieve this goal. I will love it and I will be happy. 

Tue, Oct. 25th, 2011, 07:37 pm

The last time I was in love was shortly followed by the last time I was really sad.

Sun, Oct. 2nd, 2011, 02:06 pm

in a world where nothing happens what do we do next?

Wed, Dec. 1st, 2010, 08:58 pm

 I'll never change. I'm going to be sad forever. Unless I do something about it they say. I'm sad for a lot of reasons. My friends are junkies, I don't know what love is, I'm broke....blah blah blah. I just want to make a difference to myself, someone else, the world, anything. I want to matter. That's all I've ever wanted. Withe limelight fading is there anything left to do but run? I always think so then i meet what at the time seems like an amazing person or group of people and i again i get sucked back in. Who am I doing this for and more so why? Alone, broke, and jobless...my three biggest fears other than heights and man i'd much rather be on a literal roller coaster not this figurative one that is not stopping until it comes to a crashing halt.

Thu, Nov. 25th, 2010, 11:17 am
call me crazy

i've been doing this for years. i've never been so broke though. its gone beyond the point of want, i neeeeed a job. i can't believe its been so long. oh well i've gotten a lot of sleep so thats a plus, but i need money. it does after all make the world go round as well as my car. 

Thu, Aug. 5th, 2010, 01:44 am


The ABC's of me ~

A - ACCENT: None

B- BREAST SIZE: Lessening Man Boob

C - CHORE YOU HATE: Most unles I'm haveing a party.

D - DAD'S NAME: Dave.

E - ESSENTIAL MAKE-UP ITEM: Undereye

F - FAVORITE PERFUME: Aqua di Gio

G - Silver

H - HOMETOWN: Daytona Beach, FL

I - INSOMNIA: Sometimes

J - JOB TITLE: None, for once

K- KIDS:  Not yet, but they will be, Declan Anthony, Eden Desiree', Cohen David, Lola Lorene, Atticus Grey, Gia Marie

L - LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: 2 Bedroom Luxury Townhouse  in Winter Park

M - MUM'S BIRTHPLACE: Daytona Beach, FL

N - NUMBER OF APPLES YOU'VE EATEN: A few 

O - OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAYS: 1

P - PHOBIA: Heights, speaking in public, failure, being alone.

Q - QUEST: Masters, Vegas, NYC, then San Fran once i find my beau, Declan and Eden First though.

R - RELIGOUS AFFILIATION: I was once told I had to pick being gay or loving God, so I picked.

S - SIBLINGS: Carol, Mendy, Christina, Jackie

T - TIME YOU WAKE UP: 8-11

U - UNNATURAL HAIR COLORS YOU'VE WORN: Burgundy

V - VEGETABLE YOU REFUSE TO EAT: Broccoli and Coliflower

W - WORST HABIT: Biting my nails

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: A lot, I have 11 fractured Vertabrae

Y - YUMMY FOODS YOU MAKE: Veggie Chicken and Yellow Rice, Chorizo and Yellow Rice, Veg. Chili, Vegetable Bake, Mozzeralla, Tomato, Basil, and Pesto Sandwiches, Parm and Mozz stuffed Tomatoes, Veggie Pot Roast, Veggie Meat Loaf, and more.

Z - ZANY QUIRK: My ability to hook up with most guys.

Mon, Mar. 8th, 2010, 02:08 pm

anyone  wanna  help me move the weekend after next. the 19th and or 20th

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